I miss you....
I miss you so much it hurts. It hurts when I breath, it hurts when I move, when I talk, when I cry....but mostly it hurts when I open my eyes....because you're not there.
I look around me, I hold out my hand, I turn my head, I call your name, but no matter what I do...you're still not there.
You stood up and you walked out the door without so much a hug, a touch, a kiss, or even a goodbye. You just left me standing there, crying. And you never looked back.
Why, cruel heart, didn't you look back so you could see the pain, the incredible pain and destruction you were causing??? Why didn't you turned around for just a second, so I could see for one last time your beautiful eyes?
I have been trying so hard to just mash it down and ignore it and not say it… You’re in me. You’re like — it’s like you’re a disease. It’s like I am infected by you. I just can’t think about anything or anybody and I can’t sleep. I can’t breathe. I can’t eat. I think about you all the time. Every minute of every day.
I know I take things personally. I get too emotional. But that's just me. That's the way I am. I'm so empty and so lonely without you.
I just hope that one day you will find the ONE that can make you as happy as I didn't knew how.
"I lied. I'm not out of this relationship. I’m in. I’m so in it’s humiliating because here I
am begging… Okay, here it is. Your choice. It’s simple. Her or me. And
I’m sure she’s really great. But… I love you. In a really, really big,
pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of
cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate
way that makes me hate you-love you. So, pick me. Choose me. Love me."
XO, XO :P
