Ninge

Afara ninge ca in povesti. Imi place la nebunie sa ma uit in sus cand ninge, sa privesc zapada cum vine spre mine. Imi da senzatia ca zbor, ca zbor spre cer, spre infinit, spre tine...Poate asa voi ajunge si eu aproape de o stea. Fiecare fulg de nea ne poarta povestea cu el. Asa voi fi mereu cu tine. In rest sunt singura. Sunt singura si te astept tot acolo pe.... o banca, sub ninsoare...doar eu, mereu eu, mereu acelasi suflet singur si trist.

XO XO :P

Zambet

Zambesc pentru ca asta trebuie sa fac, pentru ca asta se asteapta de la mine, pentru ca lumea din jurul meu asta vrea sa vada. Zambesc pentru ca doar atat mi-a mai ramas, ai luat cu tine orice altceva.

ZAMBESC LA EXTERIOR PENTRU CA PLANG IN INTERIOR!

xo xo :p

I..I....I just....do

Si nu....nu am nevoie de un motiv suplimentar. E ceea ce este, pentru ca este...si atat. Sentimentele nu au nevoie de motive, de ratiune, de cauze sau de argumente. Ele doar simt, fara sa gandeasca. Simt si atat. IUBESC si atat. Fara explicatii.

XO XO :P

And still...

 Si cu toate astea....ea se incapataneaza....inca...

So true...

Pana si animalele stiu asta.....oamenii mai au de invatat inca :((

I feel like...

I feel like crying so much! There's only one problem. I've cried so much lately that I don't have any more tears. I just can't cry. I'm out of tears. I guess I just need some time to refill my crying "jar", my empty eyes. 

I'll keep crying on the inside then instead of outside. It also has it's advantages. I can still appear strong for the outside world and still be broken up inside :((

XO XO :P

Regrets

Pieces...of me

You didn't broke me. I was already broken when you found me. You just dissolved the superglue that was keeping me together :((. And now I have more pieces than Humpty Dumpty. 

And if "all the king's horses and all the king's men/ Couldn't put Humpty together again", then I have no chance.

I sat, not on a wall, but on a cloud, and I had a tremendously great fall, so no one is putting me back together again.

"Gravity hurts
You made it so sweet
Till I woke up on
On the concrete

Falling from cloud nine
Crashing from the high"

(Katy Perry - Wide awake)

Letter to my dear heart...

 

All I have to do is keep my emotions out of it, out of my life. I have to be just cold and rational. Do you hear me? Can you hear me my heart? Stop messing with me. Stop sticking your nose where it doesn't belong. JUST STOP IT!! You're not welcome in my life! Just keep doing what you're supposed to be doing, 'cause you suck at doing anything else, you make a mess out of everything else. 

You beat fast and hard, you get weak and vulnerable when you shouldn't. Your job is not to take in and feel emotions. Your job it's a simple, mindless, emotionless, cold pumping job. You're an engine. So stick to what engines do. PUMP not FEEL!!!! 

 

The power of words

Tengo miedo

Tengo miedo. La tarde es gris y la tristeza
del cielo se abre como una boca de muerto.
Tiene mi corazòn un llanto de princesa
olvidada en el fondo de un palacio desierto.

Tengo miedo. Y me siento tan cansado y pequeño
que reflejo la tarde sin meditar en ella.
(En mi cabeza enferma no ha de caber un sueño
así como en el cielo no ha cabido una estrella.)

Valori...

Rabda si lupta...si vei invinge

Wasted dreams...

I haven't cried myself to sleep in a while. Guess it was long overdue.....:((

Learn how to love...

Miss U....

I miss you....

I miss you  so much it hurts. It hurts when I breath, it hurts when I move, when I talk, when I cry....but mostly it hurts when I open my eyes....because you're not there. 

I look around me, I hold out my hand, I turn my head, I call your name, but no matter what I do...you're still not there.

You stood up and you walked out the door without so much a hug, a touch, a kiss, or even a goodbye. You just left me standing there, crying. And you never looked back.